One year ago, I was getting ready to greet you into this world. I did not yet know your name or the features of your face. I did not know if you were a boy or girl. All I knew was that I loved you and couldn’t wait to meet you.

I admit I was scared. Not sure if I would be a good mom and knowing at times, I probably wouldn’t be. As your Dad and I got ready to hear your voice, I vowed to be the best I could be.

I still remember learning that I had a baby boy. Hearing you cry and holding you in my arms for the first time. It is a magic that I had never known, and you took my breath away.

It has been a wild ride since your first hours on this earth; your struggles and triumphs, and my frustrations and joys. While at times I wish I enjoyed it more and worried less, and took the time to just watch you grow, I cherish the moments we had together this past year. I will always be grateful that I had the opportunity to be the one to be with you each and everyday.

Now as you turn one, there will be amazing things that we will experience together this upcoming year. Just as I shed tears when I saw you the first time, I look forward to shedding tears when you take your first steps and when you first say Mama. Yet, my heart aches because I know this year will be about independence for you. As you learn how to be a little boy though, know you will always be my baby who fit perfectly in my arms.

I love you bubee. While Charlene Chronicles is “Never at a Loss for Words”, this is one time where words can’t express it enough. So I will just strive each and everyday to show you how much I love you.

Happy First Birthday.

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